It’s NOT the most wonderful time of the year.
We are quickly approaching what should be our 2nd Christmas with our son Jesse. Our house should be busting at the seams with a mix of birthday and Christmas decorations. We should be shopping and wrapping an extra set of gifts. Losing Jesse wasn’t as black and white as losing just him. We have lost a life time of celebration, love, life, hopes land dreams. When you lose someone after years of holiday celebrations you can feel their absence in how it changes things. However even though they may be gone You’ve got memories, and traditions to hold onto. Yet, Losing a baby, especially during pregnancy, is not something that can be easily honored but cooking a special meal, or singing a favorite carol that reminds you of ‘them’ so how do you celebrate while wading in the trenches of grief during the most wonderful time of the year? It’s hard to not let my grief turn into anger. Christmas cards come addressed to everyone in our family, except Jesse. Gifts are b...